Since beginning my
spiritual training with God Unlimited/University of Healing, I wanted
to take the special School of the Master. I am aware of this very
special learning opportunity the UNI offers. I follow my heart, it
tells me to go for it learning to release possession, judgment and
the program is a challenge, it motivates and inspires me.
It is a perfect pure
blue sky morning July 1, 2000 as I enter the school. Standing on the
patio of the Monastery I look out over the mountain range, looking for
miles to the horizons. I am ready and accept the forthcoming 92-days
of spiritual training. The seminar is held on the 100 acre Absolute
Monastery campus near Campo California. I sign-up with thirteen
eagerly committed UNI students from around the world. The School of
the Master program is a practice based primarily on illogical,
unreasonable, seemingly senseless tasks any normal human being would
judge as foolish.
However, this does
not discourage me. I know that spirit does not deal with logic. Spirit
is not limited by reason. Nonjudgmental, I follow with the wisely
chosen program my mentor offers. I flow willingly, lovingly and
perfectly pursue any order I am given. I do everything instantly. I
take each duty as a joyous illuminating experience living in the NOW!
As the daily schedule
constantly changes, many tasks surprise me and come as a tricky bolt
from the blue.
There are evenings we
go to sleep at 6, 6:30, 7 or even 9 pm.
The morning ablution
starts refreshing early. The nighttime sky has just bid goodbye. The
morning glow is still asleep in the heavens. But amid the star studded
sky I rise at 1:30. Naked under the black but star filled sky and cold
I take my outside cold water shower usually joined by a gentle cool
I leap into the
swimming pool for a short dip. The fresh pool invigorates my body and
refreshes my mind. Indeed then, after an hour of exercise, I am primed
for my three-hour meditation from 3-6. However, 3-6 is not always
certain, the irregularity of the schedule teaches me nonpossession and
flexibility and I learn to like it.
One day I read on the
program schedule: ONLY STANDING! That means no sitting, kneeling,
lying down nor leaning on or against anything. In amusement, I
instantly visualize myself eating, sleeping and using the bathroom
only standing and this for hours perhaps even days! I cannot help but
giggle within over this unusual requirement. I know it is a demanding
technique of training my attitude. I play the game!
The central meeting
room of the Absolute Monastery wrapped in its thick azure blue carpet
is to be my bedroom for 92 nights and for everyone else too sigh! In
this sanctuary, untouchably I lay down naked, to sleep without any pad
or blanket. However, this night I am destined to sleep standing up.
I think to myself,
how does a normally standing horse, an elephant or a zebra sleep? No
answer, no comparison I encourage myself. I am me!
A special white
towering candle radiates golden streams of light from the center of
the silent Monastery meeting room. Among 13 divine beings I stand
watching the evening sky turn to shades of black. As I stand I have
one goal in mind: Achievement!
The first half hour
passes quickly but there are eight more to face while standing
silently through the night. I realize that any limiting thought makes
the situation worse. I watch my thoughts to keep them uplifting.
Inwardly I start to sing. I take-off on happy thought journeys around
the world. Many joyous melodies cross my mind and underline my
positive statements. To remain focused, I mentally hum my
affirmations. Rhythmically, yet ever so slightly, I move my body to
the beat of the songs. I keep standing.
Play the game, I hear
from within, play the game and watch how untouched you are by
Another hour passes.
My legs and my feet start to protest. I speak to them: I am the boss.
I am in control. I am manager of my body. I breathe deeply and remind
myself I am peace. Peace so gently whispers from my heart: I am peace!
It works! I relax and continue my thought journey into the wonderland
of my heart’s deepest desire. I contemplate what I accomplish by
exercising discipline, dedication, determination and diligence in my
thinking throughout these standing hours. My goal is set on spiritual
illumination letting go of every limitation keeping me from being
divine. I am focused on my white light of love, on being myself and
having fun. I affirm: I enjoy being with me and listen within.
In tune with the
divine, I loose track of time and space. I am in my dream world living
in the eternal now.
It is ten o’clock
when I hear the back door squeaking. A gentle voice says: Take your
flashlight and follow me. One by one we step out into the cool night
air to follow our sharer. Barefoot I march on the sandy meditation
path letting my legs enjoy the five-minute walk to the Embassy.
Inwardly I smile, for I know what is coming next.
When my teacher opens
the sliding glass door of the recreation room, he says: Make yourself
comfortable on these cozy tiles and enjoy your sleep. No pillow, no
blanket just warm tiles to lie on. What a test of attitude! However, I
am so happy to stretch out. I believe I am offered heaven on earth
after three hours of sleeping standing and ten hours standing through
the day. I love this warm tiled floor and feel relieved. I bicycle my
legs and circle my feet to loosen up while letting them know: Standing
is over at least for the rest of the night.
I sleep like an angel
and learn another lesson: being able to rest anywhere, without
possession or judgment. I came out the winner by being myself and
having fun. Fun with all that? Yes, as an aware divine being!
Just one of the
hundreds of adventures during the 92- day School of the Master Year 2000